A long time a new

Well sorry I never updated anything on the Genesis conference.. i let people borrow my notes for a long time and just yeah.. well anyways..
I am not longer going to Bryan College.. Academy of Art University! Woot woot!
I live with my Dad.. can't wait to get on my own! Back in Cali is awesome!
Drew left yesterday to start school next week :) 8rs away.. car ride.. an hr on a plane.. yippie!
Now i need a job.. as soon as i'm done here gotta make a phone call.. babysitting :D a job lol.. and kids are awesome so why not..

I've been trying to finish reading this book for soo long ugg.. it is dangerous to right when the government is wrong.. yeah its good.. the first chapter i've read.. i've been so lazy.. i really want to get back into my reading i used to do all the time.. took me 8hrs to read a 300pg book.. now i can barely get through one..

another book i'm reading to get back in the groove, its only 108pgs lol. but very powerful.. equipped to love.. Drew's mom got it from their church or something like that.. but yeah. i still love it when people who are published say things i've always believed.. it makes me feel smart.. while people around me all my life have dissed me for those same things.. gzz. just cause i can't say it with powerful smart words doesn't mean its not true..

same goes for this article i just read.. http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2009/august/16.22.html
its absolutely fantastic.. this is what i said on facebook.. "All these stinkin people dissing young marriage.. cus of all the crap OTHER people do.. I love this article!
I think one thing he didn't mention though is our inability to understand Godly love and not humanities view of love! He just mentioned our self-centeredness .. which is humanities view of what love is about..
I believe marriage is another way to glorify God, a commitment to God and his promise, what the gospel is about, the future marriage between us and Christ! We need to step into marriage for God. We suffer with our sexual interests. but why let or make that lead the relationship when in the end its just an empty interest, a need to connect.. If you believe you can withstand everything in life and in a marriage with that one person then marry for God before the earthly power of humanity gets too involved and becomes the leading power instead of God."

..i mean theres a lot more to it than that.. but thats just something small i said.. hey at least its something.. i dont have all the time in the world.. lol.. although i have plenty of time to do what i'd like to.. heck i really need to get more organized.. i am learning to complete my thoughts better lol. and type faster.. woot woot!!

..i am trying to find my first job.. yeah almost 20 and still haven't had a job.. besides the babysitting thing i mean..
if there were any stinkin jobs out there.. a coffee shop is hiring.. hopefully i can get that.. itd be awesome.. i was thinking i can get something with typing.. then i can sit and not have to worry about stomach cramps.. bleh.. ....

hm.. a lot has gone on actually.. but i am not wanting to talk about my life as much.. which is cool.. although what's going on.. lol.. yeah..
right now i'm just really excited to be going to school for fashion design.. i've wanted to for a long time.. maybe this can really be a jumpstart into doing the things i've always dreamed... of course only with the leading from God.. hes the one that gets me anywhere in life..
heck i'm so thankful for the struggles i've had because without some i would not be prepared for certain things that have come along in life.. he uses everything for his good.. for a purpose beyond our understanding.. i'm just trying to listen..

christian music.. it really does help me stay positive and with God.. it reminds me to glorify him.. that's what secular music doesn't do.. that's why i prefer to stay away from it no matter how appealing it is.. because i struggle with forgetting God on a daily basis and christian music reminds me... it may not always be the greatest especially musically or lyrically even but hey there is a purpose.. we need to not forget God we need him constantly in our lives and as humans.. who fall into sin every second.. we need a constant reminder.. so do the things that will remind you.. instead of just what you enjoy.. have a positive outlook on God.. not on what we can do has humans for humans.. but as followers our focus should be on God, what can we do for God.. he gives us the "fun.." living here.. but we can do it all while glorifying God sometimes it might just take some searching.. some failing.. some struggles, some curses.. some sadness, anger and much more to get to where we would like to be.. and sometimes we never fully be where we want to be because God doesn't want that for us..

i feel very blessed for being given the things i have.. for the mind i have.. i fail and struggle all the time.. but overall i try to look to God and what he would like or what i can do for him with this something i want to accomplish. if i am successful at succeeding in that then yay lol.. but if i am not.. then i will not let that stop me from continuing on and looking positive! :)

well another day another time.. hopefully not another month or year :) lol..
God Bless!!
Love you all!
Don't forget Christ in all you do!
(even marriage.. )