Another Addition

Well, again, like I have said many a times, been a while since another blog.
Life's been pretty crazy.
I'm so late I don't even remember what I posted on my last blog.. hmm.. maybe I should read it? lol.. okay finished ha..
I don't want to be repetitive. Had the baby.. wonderful girl named Elizabeth.. stupid home birth didn't work out, not fun memories but apparently they'll stick with me forever?? praying they won't. Got our first place a couple of months ago (almost) leaving in the next month.. for another adventure. :)
So Drew joined the navy, he's had sooo many jobs in the last year it's not even funny. Temp agencies, that's what they do. I am just excited that he finally found something he's interested in, even though it's already a challenge that will just get harder, he seems up for it. I grew up army, so there's things that are completely different about the navy, like things he has to learn before he goes to basic and more uniforms lol, and well he's gonna be on a submarine. There are more but eh.. I can talk about things as they happen.. right? lol.. I am hoping to write more.. maybe pick a time during the week or month. I need to vent and even though this blog is just absolutely atrocious and my spelling and grammar are there too (thank goodness for spell check, hope I corrected it with the right word hehe) I hope that by continuing to write I will get better??
I know I can write well, it really just is my laziness to correct or try to write well that makes it worse. Maybe I'll take a bunch of writing classes just so I can become so overwhelmed of having to write well all the time that I just start doing it all the time in any circumstance? eh.. probably won't.. at least not in the near future.. maybe with my daughter in the future as we homeschool?? That's another thing that's cool, if i do write more I'll be able to see my writing mature? and morph into other things as I parent and then teach and through whatever else in life comes along.
Maybe one day I'll figure out how to make my blog look fancy and readable and more professional? lol..

Sometimes I write very pointless things

I just feel like writing... but I have no words to say. I can talk about yesterday, first prenatal appointment, a little late at 24 weeks but that's me nothing normal about it. Lots happened in the long yet short amount of time there, a couple hrs but not with the doctor, we basically got fired on the spot, but she's willing to work with us to get what we'd like in order for us to keep a doctor (not to keen on doctors but its nice in case something bad does happen.. that's like the only reason I want one, which is kinda stupid but whatever. I can let the tax payers pay for me to have just in case doctor.) So I guess I do have words to say. Being pregnant is funny, I will use a word I think is correct and not notice its totally the wrong word and just keep on going. Drew laughs at me when I do that, I just say hey you know what I mean lol. Besides the 7lbs I lost in the beginning from my wonderful bodies reaction to the new amounts of hormones, I've only gained 6lbs..total of 13 since i gained that 7 back too lol.. I am doing pretty good, 4months left to go.. Willing to put off my schooling till Drew is okay with everything. We need income firstly lol, which should start soon, but who knows in this world of insurance sales he started in. Just passed his test, should get his license in the mail soon, he had lots of learning to do, and he's a bit slow at it, its hard for him to learn in general so it was tough and its still going on, but that's okay its almost over and he is doing a great job at it. So, he'd like loans to be paid and for us to not use any kind of babysitter including family so if I want school it'll have to be worked through a nice schedule so either me or him is with the baby. (I'd still like to go back, but am just willing to put it off.. which sucks but i mean come on there's a person to be growthed now lol.) I am focusing on this homeschooling thing, I can teach her and learn at the same time starting just shortly after she's born :D yeah I have high hopes (for myself more than her though lol..just to clarify) anyways.. still living with his parents obvious from the lack of income yet.. but no worries soon soon soon is the hopes to get our own place. about to dip into our savings to stay afloat with gas lol.. that's what its for..when needed. I'm glad we have a separate baby savings fund lol. works out good. I feel smart sometimes lol. so.. besides that.. those are whats up in this little head, not much.. just floating around day to day. :) And gotta keep that God focus on man.. hes the one that's guiding me along this day to day journey.. trying not to look back but move forward. God Bless! :) LOVES YOU ALL! :)

Just Something knew.. for reals man!

Something new... well maybe? Lots of things are happening in my life, its exciting living or experiencing the things of life. Married, pregnant.. gained an unknown amount of weight.. bleh and feeling not up to do anything. Insurance blah going on, government sucks, I wanna be apart of it kind of bad lol... I am very much ugg.. I don't know, no words to describe how I feel about the fact that the Obama care bill passed.. Just more indication that what Christ says is going to happen, nothing he said hasn't happened so nothing to doubt there anyways, but its still a bit nerve racking living some things coming to life. well.. college is put on hold, well unless I decide last minute at some place for this semester, I just need to take one class now so i don't have to start paying my loans back, which sucks cus that means that the rest of my loans are going to start accruing interest, not something i am looking forward too, I'd like to pay the interest off the rest and at least get my AA without anymore loans before I have to start paying back everything :P 2yrs for like, well I learned a lot but degree wise nothing. Eh I have a few things to decide and few people to email and call before anything is fully decided. I'd like to do something so I'm not behind being pregnant. Thinking of getting Texas certified as a paralegal, then get AA then get nationally certified, when I do that is up for debate as well, then work a couple years, by 25 head back to get my BA, one year for that, then applying to law schools and seminaries and we'll see from there.. And then there's the buying a house in Texas (Austin preferably.. ) and husband is only for homeschooling so there's expenses for that.. yeah not getting anymore loans.. we've already started a baby savings for whatever it may need from birth to.. leaving the house lol.. The man's gotta start looking for another job soon, a more permanent one, or at least for the next year, maybe he can gain some customer experience experience eh? lol.. bleh. we'll see, he's gotta work for a couple yrs before we can consider buying anything so we've got some time, no worries.. right now we've got a growing baby in my belly and me hardly able to walk.. so glad I am able to go to chiropractor make me feel better soon and help with easier childbirth.. especially since I totally plan on doing a UC!! Woot Woot all the way! but we'll see.. right now it doesn't seem like it'd happen.. don't have a place lol.. well we might but I haven't talked too much about it.. id like an ultrasound in a few weeks to make sure everything's fine.. then just a few more, not big on doctors but can't see whats going on at home without mula to spend on stuff that i don't feel like trying to get.. so.. thats all the insurance icky problems i'm going through is for.. that's all i'm thinking about now.. well besides a few other things lol.. but eh not important just pointless thoughts and not really problem problems.. yeah thats what we got God for.. he do all the worrying for us.. :) Hope everyone's doing good :) God Bless!

After a while, Semester 2, Italy! (from obviously last spring..)

Okay...tell me again why I never do a blog..this should tell you enough...
I'm currently in Italy, second semester of College...so far it's great.
Working on a project for our "second" class...obviously not right at this moment.
I feel like talking about all my adventures..but I have only been here for, going into our third week, and I haven't been around much.
Went to Verona yesterday...walked up too many stairs...my wonderful feet, legs, and butt hurts haha, it's great!

hmm...

(I never posted this.. its waay late lol.. but why not.. I never posted anything while in italy.. i attempted.. never even published it.. wow.. lol..
hm.. went to London from Spring break.. A fantastic place.. favorite city though.. Rome.. even compared to california.. omgoodness.. gasp.. lol.. yeah.. had many adventures while off abroad.. plan to do it again soon.. travel Europe.. then maybe other continents lol.. i think first i'd like to do the us then before i move on though.. heck this is where i was born.. citizen of the (stupidest country ever.. okay maybe not but at least.. no the stupidest.. in most senses..) United states of.. america.. ha.. :D

Hmm.. another one of those updates

Sitting here.. in a new place than last time I wrote.
Have done many things.
No longer with the pops.. up with the boyfriends Gramma.. shes cool.. its closer to Bart/school.. got it hooked up in here lol.. everything is payed for all I gotta do is go to school..and behave really.. but don't I always? :) no one can deny.. I've lived up to it.

Never finished equipped to love.. but it was absolutely fantastic lol.. I get distracted.. thats what ADHD is to blame for :D hehe..
Did read three other books though.. finally started the lost books my ted dekker.. half the series completed..
Started Blue like Jazz by donald miller and Simply Christian by n. t. wright as well.. have to finish them.. well want to, they are due tomorrow and don't like to renew or check out again.. would like to write about them.. but no promises yet lol.
And I still have that wonderful, "It is dangerous to be right when the government is wrong" book to read and blog about.. I get free books if i do that :D I read the preface lol. its good.. just eh.. :P too much of the same stuff.. i'll get to it, i always do. i'm a last minute worker.. no pressure with this book..

speaking of pressure.. A- midterm.. LOVE writing papers lol. but that class I haven't learned anything new in.. its just boring..what the class is for wise.. Love how the teacher stops and talks politics though..
Illustration.. going fantastic.. (maybe I should learn how to post pics?? lol..) I get the computer but I'm slow most of the time catching onto things..

..hmm.. oo.. My gramma watches those cheesy Christian tv.. TBN.. no offense to them or anything.. (okay firstly i'd like to say.. LOVE "selling the news" by switchfood their vice Verses album.. music is my best friend right now in this world of my unsocial life :P )

..anywho gramma and cheesy tv.. this guy who prophesies.. said he had a vision some odd yrs back about a nuclear war with Iran.. he predicted its going to happen within the yr.. and a stock market drop.. (i'm assuming a big one lol..)
I'm stealing her post.. here it is.. just so you know.. lol
"Here is the link where you can listen to Perry Stone's prophesy to the church concerning Israel and Iran. It is on the last 30 minutes of the program. http://www.itbn.org/index/detail/lib/Praise%20the%20Lord/ec/hxYmhkMzpS1gUUx_PHDXKBa0scGM5Bui#ooid=hxYmhkMzpS1gUUx_PHDXKBa0scGM5Bui " (you can be no lazy and copy and paste the unlinked link lol. )

... well my mind is over with thoughts for the moment so I guess that is meaning the End of this blog entry.. (still suck at blogging lol. but I like to talk my opinions and thoughts and life and me every so often.. so what the hey.. :) if people are interested in what goes through my mind every now and then, then great if not.. well whatevs.. )

Love you all!
:)
God Bless!
Christ be the king! woot woot..


(oh.. one more thing.. AAU is great and all.. not the school for me lol.. going to.. take a yr off.. maybe get my aa in psychology (which means back to texas cus i can get it for super cheap and in a yr.. along with maybe my paralegal certificate too.. 11 month only sat. program.. also not too much! waiting on the Lord for direction..)

A long time a new

Well sorry I never updated anything on the Genesis conference.. i let people borrow my notes for a long time and just yeah.. well anyways..
I am not longer going to Bryan College.. Academy of Art University! Woot woot!
I live with my Dad.. can't wait to get on my own! Back in Cali is awesome!
Drew left yesterday to start school next week :) 8rs away.. car ride.. an hr on a plane.. yippie!
Now i need a job.. as soon as i'm done here gotta make a phone call.. babysitting :D a job lol.. and kids are awesome so why not..

I've been trying to finish reading this book for soo long ugg.. it is dangerous to right when the government is wrong.. yeah its good.. the first chapter i've read.. i've been so lazy.. i really want to get back into my reading i used to do all the time.. took me 8hrs to read a 300pg book.. now i can barely get through one..

another book i'm reading to get back in the groove, its only 108pgs lol. but very powerful.. equipped to love.. Drew's mom got it from their church or something like that.. but yeah. i still love it when people who are published say things i've always believed.. it makes me feel smart.. while people around me all my life have dissed me for those same things.. gzz. just cause i can't say it with powerful smart words doesn't mean its not true..

same goes for this article i just read.. http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2009/august/16.22.html
its absolutely fantastic.. this is what i said on facebook.. "All these stinkin people dissing young marriage.. cus of all the crap OTHER people do.. I love this article!
I think one thing he didn't mention though is our inability to understand Godly love and not humanities view of love! He just mentioned our self-centeredness .. which is humanities view of what love is about..
I believe marriage is another way to glorify God, a commitment to God and his promise, what the gospel is about, the future marriage between us and Christ! We need to step into marriage for God. We suffer with our sexual interests. but why let or make that lead the relationship when in the end its just an empty interest, a need to connect.. If you believe you can withstand everything in life and in a marriage with that one person then marry for God before the earthly power of humanity gets too involved and becomes the leading power instead of God."

..i mean theres a lot more to it than that.. but thats just something small i said.. hey at least its something.. i dont have all the time in the world.. lol.. although i have plenty of time to do what i'd like to.. heck i really need to get more organized.. i am learning to complete my thoughts better lol. and type faster.. woot woot!!

..i am trying to find my first job.. yeah almost 20 and still haven't had a job.. besides the babysitting thing i mean..
if there were any stinkin jobs out there.. a coffee shop is hiring.. hopefully i can get that.. itd be awesome.. i was thinking i can get something with typing.. then i can sit and not have to worry about stomach cramps.. bleh.. ....

hm.. a lot has gone on actually.. but i am not wanting to talk about my life as much.. which is cool.. although what's going on.. lol.. yeah..
right now i'm just really excited to be going to school for fashion design.. i've wanted to for a long time.. maybe this can really be a jumpstart into doing the things i've always dreamed... of course only with the leading from God.. hes the one that gets me anywhere in life..
heck i'm so thankful for the struggles i've had because without some i would not be prepared for certain things that have come along in life.. he uses everything for his good.. for a purpose beyond our understanding.. i'm just trying to listen..

christian music.. it really does help me stay positive and with God.. it reminds me to glorify him.. that's what secular music doesn't do.. that's why i prefer to stay away from it no matter how appealing it is.. because i struggle with forgetting God on a daily basis and christian music reminds me... it may not always be the greatest especially musically or lyrically even but hey there is a purpose.. we need to not forget God we need him constantly in our lives and as humans.. who fall into sin every second.. we need a constant reminder.. so do the things that will remind you.. instead of just what you enjoy.. have a positive outlook on God.. not on what we can do has humans for humans.. but as followers our focus should be on God, what can we do for God.. he gives us the "fun.." living here.. but we can do it all while glorifying God sometimes it might just take some searching.. some failing.. some struggles, some curses.. some sadness, anger and much more to get to where we would like to be.. and sometimes we never fully be where we want to be because God doesn't want that for us..

i feel very blessed for being given the things i have.. for the mind i have.. i fail and struggle all the time.. but overall i try to look to God and what he would like or what i can do for him with this something i want to accomplish. if i am successful at succeeding in that then yay lol.. but if i am not.. then i will not let that stop me from continuing on and looking positive! :)

well another day another time.. hopefully not another month or year :) lol..
God Bless!!
Love you all!
Don't forget Christ in all you do!
(even marriage.. )

Yup..its been a while.. I think you deserve more my friend...