Getting used to Everything.. yet not

It was a pretty crazy awesome day. Fire alarm this morning woke me up right before I planned on getting up so wasn't able to get ready in time for class.. bleh.
So slept until my next class, this time didn't give myself time to eat, so I like shoved a burger and fries in me in about 7mins then went to my next class. Three classes in a row then went out to eat, another Italy abroad reunion, but with Karissa this time, one who doesn't go to Byran ha. It was pretty awesome to say the least, but 14 people is a lot.

In my PSGS class today it was very interesting, or made me more interested in the whole foreign policy things. I already didn't like the way our country went about and did war just because they wanted to. And not I know.. yeah didn't care too much to find out if there were laws against what they were doing, or rather didn't find out what exactly they were, I had a little in-cling that it was there somewhere. Anyways, I was fired up at all that.
The way our country just decides to go to war cause they don't like the way the country runs itself.. we want out fake democratic system to rule the world cause we think we are the best. No we were the best, maybe, and that was only because we did look to God as our guide in ruining this country, especially more so when it started. But its not really something that can be said, and I agree to a point, we can't really know the people who started it, they aren't here personally to defend themselves, but you can look at our constitution and see God and biblical principles, that differentiated us from Britain, if that is correct-I am working on my history.. and all memory really. So.. I am not sure what more I say.. oh yeah.. well sort of. I'd like to add that our country has handled these disagreements among itself so terribly, making laws to do something that is already a law but making a dumber one, and then not even following it in the first place. United States get your act together please.. I at least would like American to get more involved and take advantage of the rights we have to go to the federal gov and get what we what, with certain grounds, and get our rights back as the people.. and US get your stupid guns and troops out of the middle east.. we have done enough.. get "us" out of everywhere until we have a legitimate reason, for example us getting attacked, to go to war on someone..

And my second class, Lifespan Christian Ministry, always want to call it lifespan development.. i don't know.. ugg.. Its interesting. I don't think I agree with Erikson's way of our personality development continuing into adult hood.. but that is only because I haven't quite figured out what personality is. People have so many ideas and I haven't quite found one I agree with.. well if i have i have forgotten it. Personality is such a difficult subject. I think that as we age and grow and learn it has an affect of us and the way we process and see things.. I don't think anything can change our personality, I think God is the one that chooses who you are. And your life experiences, well on another topic is that he puts them all in place so you can become who he wants/has you planned to, but on the other end or different.. well yeah again your life just plants what Erikson's theory does say, how you learn to trust and stuff in that manner, but (we talked only about the first stage today.. trust/mistrust) so when looking at it from that stage and how it can go on throughout the life and never move forward, I believe that it doesn't change your personality if you stay or move on, it may strengthen how you look at yourself and how others look at yourself, but isn't your personality who you are? And your soul what keeps you alive, what makes you being, apart yet with God? I don't know I am still trying to find out what I believe in different aspects/ areas of life.

That's why I love college.
(but yeah still wish it could be a bit more productively busy)
I want to try, next week, to read, firstly the list of must read books everyone says all the time, i missed out on a lot, and then maybe even write my opinions of them.. a small report/review of some sort. I love writing.. I like researching too.

well I will do and end up where God wants me to.

Oh and I am loving my boyfriend right now..
and enjoying the wait we have together as we learn more about each other and what God may have planned for our lives.
I hope to make a humungo impact on society by digging into what the governments have done wrong and what they have done right, and how we as a country want to see the wrongs righted and what they believe we have done right to begin with. Get it a people country again. stir some real strong world changing debates.
Or help people with their individual lives and help them figure out what they love to do and encourage them and help give them resources to make it happen instead of just a bunch of words that may help but in the end don't get anything to happen, no real activity. But I do like to get people to think, but I like actions better. Which is what I would like and continue to do with my life, do what I say I'd like to try to accomplish with my life and education.