The middle of the night-new old insight

I always get inspired by watching people succeed. It doesn't bother me if they go through issues and in the end they lost what they have made, its just a matter of getting there and saying that you can do it. And in the end I'd hope to inspire others to not give up.
I suck at blogging there is no doubt, but it is a good way to occasionally type out a ton of my thoughts I am having, like now in the middle of the night, or maybe during a time I'd like to share my life with the world. ha, no one cares too much but one day I'd hope to catch the attention of people.
I really wanna go to law school. I am not sure exactly how my undergrad is going to go quite yet though. I am at Bryan, I do know I would like to double major and minor in something and graduate in less than 6 years total. I applied to APU, if i did my math correctly I should be able to graduate 2 or at least 1.5 years earlier than at Bryan. Of course, id like to take a semester off and then work a summer. I have to pay for the price difference so even if I didn't something, I'd have to figure out how to pay for it. Even Bryan at this point. Praise God for Drew and his kindness in paying the last bit left of my tuition so I could stay and attend this semester. Now I need to figure out another 1000 or pray I get in with the semester payed for at APU.
I'd like to at least go to California. We'll see.
I would like to also not change majors, Bryan: politics and government-prelaw and christian ministry: leadership (want to add a psychology minor), at APU I'd like to do: political science:prelaw, and psychology with a biblical languages minor.
I'd like to be a paralegal... not sure how my life is going to go, but I'd hope and think it could last another 3 years at law school.
See, undergrad, these 19 credits, 7 classes, a ministry and group is not enough for me, I get bored easily my mind needs to be constantly stimulated. It was interesting today in general pysch about someone/people trying to invent a drug that you dont' need to sleep. I just need to manage my time better. I can make it, I (firstly need to thank the wonders of the computer saving watchacallit and dislike the mysterious uses of keyboards that kill a tab as you type too fast and sporadic... lol :P ) anyways... I believe I was saying how I just need to somehow manage my time better.. hmm like read at least a few pages every so often, I'd like to get involved more, I'd like to have a job. I was trying to do a sport, volleyball I just suck and so its not helping my mind very much in fact it was not fun, I need to start slow at the gain of the mental ability to do handle sports.. lol it hurts my eyes and brain, its just not my thing.

People keep saying I should do something in health and go to art school. Man would I love to do that. Maybe I can go during the summers while in law school.. and do like interships or whatever you call it or I do while in school.
Id like to start my family as well, at least winding down to the end of it. But God has that planned out, I am okay with whatever.

See I always have a backup of a backup plan, just in case one doesn't work out these are my other ideas, I am just interested in too many things.. bleh. I am typing this really fast, my mind is working hard tonight lol. Its almost 2am, when I wanted to go to bed. I like this idea. Bed at 2. It works for me. Now I need to manage everything else and figure out who I am, keep my mind busy, when it's busy in a good way I remember more. I am weird apparently, I like it, being different, but I also like finding people that are like me, it makes me feel like that part is real and not just me making something happen. Cause sometimes, stupid discouragement of people that don't know that's what they are doing to me, I feel like that is making me make me have reactions or just be like I am sometimes.. hmm well all well life is a work in progress. Always learning.

Goal: to show Christ in all I do. Be determined and never give up. God doesn't give up on us. Be an example, uh duh Jesus is the ultimate. hmm.. I like that talk. To be able to be able (hehe) to talk like a theologian that knows what he/she is talking about but with political lengo.. hmmm but I may need to fix my English skills up a bit... hey isn't that what college is for? hehe..

This is Kayla @ MyMindsCrazyWindowView.blogspot.com and this is THE LIFE OF MY MIND!

(for reals man I am getting this language thing down.. This semesters goal is to learn to commmunicate verbally, conversationally, and of course to better express the thoughts and patterns of my mind to others.. along with myself cus it's gotta start there.. hmm HEY! This is like both, I am talking "to myself" but yet it's a blog.. for ee..vv..err...yy..body! :D )

GOD BLESS!!
HOLA MY BROTHA'S and SISTA'S! Christ be with ya!
PEACE!